I feel like I spent the entire year of 2016 in recovery mode. I had suffered a severe kidney infection and kidney failure in December 2015. It took months to recover from the situation. In July of 2016, I pinched a nerve in my back that left me in excruciating pain through my shoulder and elbow. I was in physical therapy for over two months dealing with that issue. It seemed like I was falling apart and I was dreading what could come next. I was 47, overweight, and suffering from high blood pressure. I was more than a little depressed. So, by the end of that year, I knew that I needed to make a change. So, I did. I declared 2017 the year I brought sexy back. Sexy had a pretty long way to come... I started walking every morning and evening, just up and down my driveway. I logged step after step and mile after mile. I know I must have looked foolish to the cars that passed by on the busy highway. I was that crazy woman who walked all the time, usually talking to myself, and...
It's not about the numbers. It's about the words, the words we use to inhibit, to control, to inspire, and to empower ourselves. I changed my diet and that changed my body. I changed my vocabulary and that changed my life. And, as the days go by, I concern myself less with the numbers on the scale and more so with the words that are in my head. I no longer say that I'm overweight or unattractive or invisible. I choose to be as kind to myself as I try to be to others by saying that I am healthy or improved or just plain better. Because this journey that I'm on is not about weight; it never was. It's about worth and that can't be determined on a scale or through the eyes of others. Worth is inside of you. Change your words and find it.
Love, love, love.
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